Update: I’ve got a job!

A genuine, rare shot of me before that horrific virtual interview

Hello, I hope everyone is doing well. As promised, I’m sharing what has happened with my application for internships next year…

I got my first preference! I will be at a large metro hospital that is renowned for its trauma and lung transplant services. It also has a radiology rotation for interns, which is a field I am currently interested in. An additional advantage is that it is slightly (10 minutes) closer to my home than the hospital I am currently situated at. Needless to say, I am very happy with this result and it certainly feels like the culmination of 4 years of study has paid off. It is a notoriously difficult hospital for Melbourne University students to get into, as it is extremely popular and affiliated with another university. Therefore, competition is high and usually, only a handful from other universities manage to snatch a spot. Last year only 4-5 students from my university managed to sneak into the pool of 60 interns, and this year there is 7 of us. So I am feeling incredibly lucky, especially as I was hedging my bets on my second preference (as it is my own clinical school and I have strong roots there).

But with this excitement also comes a hint of sadness. I’ve spent the past 3 years of my medical degree at the same hospital and have grown to love and cherish my time here. Many of my friends and acquaintances have chosen to come back next year and I feel a pang of regret to be leaving them and throwing myself into a new environment. I am going to miss my friends and can’t help feeling slightly jealous that they will be able to learn and grow together. Of course, I made the decision to preference another hospital knowing full well this could be the result, but that doesn’t mean it’s easy for me to walk away. My research supervisor, whom I am close to, is also a senior academic clinician at this hospital, and I was worried she would take offence at me not choosing to come back. But we’ve spoken and she’s been immensely supportive, and we’ve promised to remain in touch and maybe even work together again in the future.

I am also simply the type of person to always think “what if?” What if I have a bad time? What if everyone else at this new place is crazy smart and I’ll expose myself as an imposter? I will have to learn an entirely new hospital system, layout and protocols. It took me 3 years to learn how my current hospital works, and I still have no clue where certain things are! I am sure this isn’t a surprise to anyone, as I can be quite the pessimist and sometimes err on the edge of paranoia. But I promise these thoughts are fleeting and related to nerves that come with starting something new and being in an unfamiliar environment. I know that at the end of the day, even though it’ll be scary, I will survive. And thrive (hopefully). Mistakes will be made and bad days will come, but that should never stop me from achieving my goals.

Besides, this will be a good opportunity for me to get outside my comfort zone and do some real soul searching. It is never a bad idea to see how other organisations do things and to broaden one’s horizons. I may also get the chance to further explore radiology, which is a field of medicine I have some interest in. The only problem is trying to convince my parents that choosing a career where there is inevitable radiation exposure is not “fatal.” Especially since it will likely head down the interventional route in years to come. Whilst it is obviously a safe career (as there are plenty of people within the field alive and kicking), the mere thought of having a potentially higher risk than the general public is terrifying to the two people in my life who have done everything in their power to protect me from every conceivable harm. My parents come from humble backgrounds and have no medical knowledge, and thus thinking about me constantly being associated with “radiation” is not very appealing. Additionally, they’re concerned that sitting in a dark room looking at computer screens all day will be boring and not “glamorous” enough. Of course, I understand where they are coming from and I know they have my best interests at heart. These are all things I have thought about myself, and at this stage I have to say I haven’t made a decision yet. I am in no rush to commit myself to something I have no concrete experience in and thus I am going to leave it for when I have worked for a while and have developed my skills and interests.

Anyways, this was all I wanted to share today. I am currently having a two week break from clinical placement and enjoying my time off. I am also glad to be out of the hospital for a little while, as things were starting to get a little hairy there. Thank god I am a lazy person who quite enjoys staying at home with nothing to do, as this may be our way of life for a while. Stay safe everyone!


82 thoughts on “Update: I’ve got a job!

  1. Congratulations! I’m sure that you will do well.

    My father gave me some relevant advice:

    “If you’ve carefully thought about it, then never worry about making the right decision. Make your decision, and then MAKE IT the right decision by doing the right things and taking the right attitude.”

    (By the way, he was chief resident at one of our city’s two big hospitals and later established the medical education program at the other big hospital. So he’d know about your situation.)

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  2. So very happy for you Doctor. It has been a while since we have talked but I prayed that all would work out for you and it sounds like God answered my prayers. Congratulations πŸŽŠπŸŽ‰. I think you are doing the right thing. You are kind and smart and you will make new friends and thrive at the new hospital. It is a big adventure for you and we learn things, of course the easier decision would be to have stayed with what was familiar, but you have guts and determination. You got that from your parents. They must be so proud. Love and lots of blessings in your new adventures Doctor. Love, hugs and prayers for you and your family. β€οΈπŸ’•Joni

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    1. Thank you Joni!! You’ve always been such a great source of support and I appreciate everything πŸ™‚ My parents are happy as long as I am happy, I am nervous but also ready to begin this new journey. Lots of love to you too ❀

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  3. Congratulations πŸŽ‰ That is awesome!!! πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

    I knew you would do amazing!! You have heart and also know your stuff – you are also very open to always learning – of course they want you!!! Yay!!! Congrats again!!!

    I get what you mean with the leaving people behind and starting in on the unknown – you are gonna miss it… but only for a moment… and you always have memories – you are about to make a ton of new ones! Life is change

    You will keep in touch on occasion … and then at first in the new place – it might be overwhelming cause is new… but I know you are going to own it!!

    How exciting!!! You are going to do amazing πŸ‘πŸ‘

    Your smile must be so huge with excitement!! Look what you have accomplished πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

    Congrats πŸŽ‰ and well done!
    Take care and stay safe!

    I already wish you could be my doctor lol ✌️… see already in demand lol

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    1. Aww thank youu!!!

      You are far too kind, I am feeling very privileged and lucky to be in this position! I know, I cannot stay in one place for the rest of my life and change will happen regardless so I might as well dive head first into it.

      I definitely anticipate it will be overwhelming and that it will take time, but I hope I will learn the ropes fairly quickly!

      Thank you so much for all the encouragement, I hope you are staying safe as well ❀

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  4. Congratulations Helen, and you look so well and happy! I’m delighted you can take a break now, knowing everything is coming together to give you every chance of enjoying a very fine future. And that’s wonderful because a very fine future for you is also good news for all your patients-to-be! It’s a Win-Win and I love Win-Wins!!! Big, encouraging hugs, Liz xx

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      1. Thank you Helen! We’ve both got colds and feeling a bit under-the-weather but thankfully we don’t need to stress about whether it’s Covid as NZ still has no community transmission. You just take good care of yourself dear lady πŸ™‚

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  5. Congratulations and good luck. Change isn’t easy and the beginning of anything is always hard but you’ll do great! You’ve prepared for this! ❀

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  6. I add my congratulations on earning a new opportunity, though I sympathize with your misgivings, too. I’m sure you will be guided by what thinks and feels best. It’s great that you have a break just now. This is earned, too; and you sound as if you know how to enjoy the less distracted time. The fact that you can express concern for your own fearful negativity doesn’t make it go away but indicates a willingness to live with it while not letting it take over (except when something fearful truly happens).

    Enjoy your break, and please stay safe as well.

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    1. Thank you Christopher! I am definitely enjoying my time off, although from the sounds of it our hospital is buckling under the pressure and I am not sure how things will be when I go back. But what can one do, just have to stay vigilant and be as safe as possible. I hope you are doing well too and remaining positive despite these difficult times.

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  7. Great picture…many congratulations…the good part is that you’ll make new friends…plus would be in contact with the old ones…that’s the bright side, right? 😊

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      1. You’re very welcome, Helen! 😊
        Hey FYI, I have sent you an invitation to re-follow my blog. There has been some glitches with notifications. So I had to “remove you”. Pls check your mail & accept the invite if you would still like to follow my blog. Alternatively, you may click on “Follow” button in your WP reader or visit my site (navinspoems.com) & hit follow Navin’s poems πŸ™βœ¨πŸ’›

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  8. You make me laugh. Lucky? I don’t think so. You underplay your own hard-won accomplishments. And you envy your friends you are leaving behind? Don’t you think every one of them envy YOU!? While I am sure you will miss them for a while, I’m also sure that you will make new friends and creat new bonds. (Not to mention that extra 10 minutes of sleep every day.) Amy

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  9. Oh, Helen. ☺️ My goodness! What wonderful, exciting exciting exciting news!

    And guess what? Even if every single doctor there is smarter than you, you have such a beautiful heart to share with everyone you work with. Not to mention all the patients you meet. There are so many ways doctors help people. Sharing a beautiful heart is one of them. β˜€οΈ

    Good luck on this shiny new life adventure! Yay! xx

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      1. You’re welcome.☺️ And yes, I am very well. As well as can be expected Mumming two small monsters (that’s code for children) in lock down. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‰ xx

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    1. Ahahaha John I always love reading whatever you have to say! Thank you so much for all of the encouragement and support, genuinely never fail to make me smile πŸ™‚ But please, I’d wait a few more years before feeling safe in my hands!

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    1. Hi there Hazel, I am sorry that’s happened, I do hope you sought medical advice if it was serious. Trauma can cause some bleeding from vessels that just needs time to recover, I hope you are doing better now!

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